The 2ww is here. Today. June 5th 2008.
Hi everyone. Or ANYone I should say. By now you all have heard our disappointing news. If your still interested in my story, here's a little of what is going on.
We are not pregnant.
I am sooooo sad.
My heart hurts.
I'm depressed.
I feel like I'm going crazy.
I weep at the drop of a hat.
I need to talk to someone.
Someone that has experience in dealing with infertility.
I'm working on it.
I try to stay busy, but my mind wanders.
I was suppose to go see the RE for my pregnancy test. I couldn't get out of bed. I called the nurse to tell her my news. She said I need to have the test done anyhow. I will go to my OBGYN next week just because I respect her enough to do so. It's really rather stupid, but I will go and subject myself to a waiting room full of pregnant mommies to be. I'll go so I can hear the word NEGATIVE...just in case I didn't get it the first time. I told the RE I would see them to try again when I win the lottery.
I am working through my grief. I quite honestly cannot grasp the fact or have accepted the fact that this treatment is not working. At least not this time it didn't. How can I possibly get more financing? It's almost a crazy thought.
If you are still reading this I ask of you to go to www.tearsandhope.com. I tried to upload it, but I cannot for some reason. It will help explain a little of this dreaded journey that I am on.
In the meantime I'm working on getting my mojo back.
Love
Jennifer
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4 comments:
Hey Jen,
I am sorry my friend for the results, as you know I am going trough the whole thing, but the way I have met you I know you are strong and that you will make it trough this, I will pray for you.
Hugs,
Vesna
Hi from Czech Republic :-)
we are sorry to hearing this bad news. We hope u will be OK soon.
We sent you email and some pictures several days ago but it seems it wasn´t delivered. Maybe u have got very good spam firewall :-) Do you have any other email address?
Helena & Joe
Hi from Czech Republic :-)
We are sorry to hearing this bad news. We hope you will be OK soon.
Did you receive our email? We sent it several days ago (and also some pictures) but it seems it wasn´t delivere. Maybe you have got some very good spam firewall :-)
Bye,
Helena & Joe
JJ,
I'll check the web site. Keep on doing what you need to do to get through this surreal experience. I think of you each day and can't wait to see you in July. Is there a next step? You'll know. Love, tt
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