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Hi anyone who could at least be sort of interested! Thanks for tuning in!

I just got back from my Anniversary/Valentines Day getaway! Islamorada at it's best! Ha-Ha..I won't spoil all the FABULOUS details, I'll keep that between Josh and I.......O, he loves me so! Thank You Josh, My husband and Best Friend!!!! Thank you for thinking so highly of me!@!

Pierres...MY All-Time FAV...It is truely all that and a bag of sand. I hope to take my mother there in March. To Pierres that is!!!!! Thank you Josh for the Budget!!!

On to bigger and better......Josh and I, well we still try to have a BABY.......(Has anyone seen Juno??) Talk about crying in your lap......

The pressure is on....It is true..we don't have the money to go to the Czech Republic! NO...NO...NO Money........Not Josh, Not I...what to do!!!! WHAT DO WE DO?? Give up?? Should I just give up????? I don't want to give up....I want to go to another country and have IVF performed only because The Great USA does not allow my treatment to be covered my insurance. YES, I am pissed off about that...........REALLY Mad......We work, we work alot and are dedicated!! Why can't they see how desperate we are. Maybe it's just me, desperate........I'm sure it's just me.
The pressure I feel could blow my heart and my brain right out of my chest. It's that same brick wall, I cannot penetrate it, someone please help.

The money has to be sent in. $375.00 the deposit.............. Our new found friends in our situation that we want to go with already sent their money in. PRESSURE! What about the other 10 g's??????
Josh sits on the fence again.....he says we are too strapped.....well I think we will always be too strapped...........Now is the time...........No time but now....as they say..................

On a lighter note. Guillia and Trish came over today...Pool Party at JJs....Trish my BFF...I love her...She always shares Guillia with me... She's 5..Also the smartest, prettiest, funniest little girl I know. I've known her since before she was born......She is my heart. Her mom has done such a such good job with her. She is soooo polite.....the politest little girl I know. O and speaks two languages! Ha-Ha!! She loves Josh too. They look so cute when she goes to give him a hug.....AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW......... She wants to come over for movie night. Thank You Trish for sharing!!!! I think I would have lost it by now had I not had something to ease my nurturing with.

I had to have that moment.......

About Czech......well I'll sit Josh down as soon as he is done with the fish tanks.......Then I'll explain to him how we can use more of my credit to make this happen.......Is it always me??
I think that is how it is going to go down............

my situtation.....

Till tomorrow.