Last Day in Zlin, Czech Republic!

Hi Everyone,

I've been taking it easy the last few days per the Dr. I only go on little walks and small drive-bys by any window with shoes in it. Ha-Ha! And of course eat like a barbarian. Lisa, Conrad and I have been driving around as well. Today we went over the Slovakia border just so we could say that we did. Yesterday I went to Mass at the Catholic church, downtown. It was very sweet. Actually, I can't wait to get out of here. I am all Czech Republiced out. I probably could have gone home a few days ago, but I didn't want to chance the long ride home and the stress that accompanies it.

I've been feeling o.k. I do not think I have any pregnancy symptoms. I think it's too soon anyway. I've started bargaining with myself about wheather or not I could be pregnant. Mostly my mind tells me "No, it's too good to be true". The other part tells me if I'm not pregnant I could take the news better than being pregnant and then miscarrying it at a later date like last time. So just another rollercoaster ride. It could go either way as we all know. As I've said before, I've done everything I could possibly do, there is nothing else. It's all in the universes hands. In Gods hands. Certainly not in mine.

This experience also isn't the vacation I've dreamed about, but I will say I have tried to make the most of it. I have made a few friends along the way and have seen some really beautiful places. Really beautiful. I wish I could post some pics now, but alas, I'm not on my computer. I will when I get home on Wednesday. I'm leaving first thing in the morning for the treck home. Yay, O, Yay.......
In other news I've decided to keep the date of the pregnancy test to myself at this time, however, I want to get some opinions on what you guys think I should do.(It's still many weeks off)
I am facing the dilemma of going to the Dr. and taking the blood test that says Yay or Nay, or just waiting it out like normal women do. I could just wait it out and see if a normal cycle starts to confirm a BFN/P (Big Fat Negative/Positive) OR I could go to my old RE (reproductive Endocrinologist) and have the blood test done (not forgetting the fact that he didn't want me to come here, then I have to risk hearing, "I told you so" if it's BFN) Or I could just go to the OBGYN and have him do it. I hear you all saying you think I wouldn't be able to wait. But the truth is, is that I'm scared. Big Scaredy Cat Jennifer...... It's back to one second at a time......Ugghhhhh, so frustrating......I'm sorry if I seem to be in a negative way, but I'm just trying to be realistic. (Big Sigh)

I want to mention my many thanks to ALL of you who have kept up with the blog and supported me while I've been so far away from anything familiar. (except sunshine and dandilions, LOL) It's helped me tremendously to read your comments and hear your prayers for me and my future family. I never could have imagined being in a situation like this. T*H*A*N*K*Y*O*U....... So I will sign off on that note with love and kisses. I look forward to land of free ketchup and the home of the brave, The beautiful U.S.A, Land that I love!!!

Love Jennifer Shu*k
xoxoxxo

P.S. I didn't get any souveniers for anyone. The only souvenier I wanna bring you guys is a healthy pregnancy....Thanks in advance.....:)